Tuesday, January 26, 2010

The Secret set within our hearts

The Secret Set within Our Hearts

It seems to me we can never give up longing and wishing while we are alive. There are certain things we feel to be beautiful and good, and we must hunger for them. (George Eliot)

And I still haven’t found what I’m looking for. (U2)

There is a secret set within each of our hearts. It often goes unnoticed, we rarely can put words to it, and yet it guides us throughout the days of our lives. This secret remains hidden for the most part in our deepest selves. It is simply the desire for life as it was meant to be. Isn’t there a life you have been searching for all your days? You may not always be aware of your search, and there are times when you seem to have abandoned looking altogether. But again and again it returns to us, this yearning that cries out for the life we prize. It is elusive, to be sure. It seems to come and go at will. Seasons may pass until it surfaces again. And though it seems to taunt us, and may at times cause us great pain, we know when it returns that it is priceless. For if we could recover this desire, unearth it from beneath all other distractions, and embrace it as our deepest treasure, we would discover the secret of our existence.
Reading from the Ransomed Heart.

I am in awe that it took so long for me to realize just how much I've felt this yearning in my heart...but because I "had" to be in control I continued to think I could make things happen. I pray each day that my Heavenly Father will continue to tear the masks away that have hidden the true me...I'm as if born anew again realising it's only by stopping and LISTENING to my Father's voice can I have true peace. Letting go is hard for some especially me, but I have...it's wonderful to go to HIM knowing he hears my heart. I know God created me for HIM...he loves me so much and has for 60 some years been trying to reach me. He's been doing a good work in me for the past year and I'm so very thankful

Thursday, January 14, 2010

What an awesome day!

It's absolutely beautiful today....sunny and 50 degrees...Thank you Lord !!! I walked down our driveway at 6:30 this morning to catch a neighbor and it was 20 degrees...Yes I put a nice warm long coat on, but should have added a hat as well. heheh!! As the sun came up and the birds began their singing I thought I won't need the fireplace today...and I was right...we are having a heat wave..hehehehhe!!! I have the back door open so I can let all that wonderful smelling air in...(not for too long tho) I caught some squirrels digging in the coating of snow that still covers most of the ground. I suspect theres corn still under it. I can just smell the next season coming...do you ever feel that??? I can visualize the new little seedlings popping up from the defrosting ground...and the buds on the trees that have been uncovered for the winter...what a lovely thought for me...for the new warmth of Spring brings warmth to my old bones..hehehhe!!
So I'm sitting here thinking I need to get up and talk a little walk on the deck to get a good dose of Vitamin D...it only takes 15 mins to get your daily requirement!!! Did you know that??? That's what Dr OZ says..hehehe!!! I'm in a very happy joyious mood today. Things can be off in other areas, but feeling the warmth from the Sun makes me think of my heavenly Father...well so many things do, how about you??? What brings the Face Of our Father to your mind?? I think of him most of the day really....I see all his creations around me and I feel his love inside me. It's wonderful to know he's inside me and around me filling me with HIS grace and Love!!!
We are truly blessed aren't we?? Blessings for a wonderful day.
Please remember to give what you can to our Red Cross or wherever you normally give when tragic hits our neighbors. (((hugs)))

Thursday, January 7, 2010

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A Prayer request

This was sent to me by a dear friend Patti, and I believe Prayer is Power!!!

Prayer request for Gary and Cindy Hogman by way of Faith Presbyterian Church.
Gary is serving in Iraq while his young wife is fighting cancer here. See his Request below.
Bobby S. Briggs, MSgt, USAF823 ESFS/SFOCFlight SergeantBAGHDAD AB, IRAQ

My name is Gary Hogman. Some of you receiving this know me, some do not.My wife, Cindy, is 32 years old and has just been diagnosed with stage 4 Cervical cancer. Her chances for survival are very slim. She was pregnant with our s econd child and had miscarried recently at 3 Months; and now we know why.

This is a request for you to forward this e-mail to everyone you know asking for prayer.. The more people that pray for her to be healed, the better. Your prayer can, and perhaps will, save her life. Pray for the HEALING of CINDY HOGMANAnd the removal of all cancer from her body so she may enjoy all that life has to offer, and to continue to be the wonderful mother to our 5-year-old son Michael.

The power of Prayer is unsurpassed. I want the whole world to have her in their prayers the next few weeks. God will hear our cry. Please do not be offended by my plea. This is only a request for your help. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading this and helping with our request for healing! No words can express the power we have when we each do a little to come together.
Regards, Cindy's husband -

Monday, January 4, 2010

A New Beginning

As I prayed to God this morning before reading my Bible I asked God to guide my day, and show me how to touch others with your love, and grace! I prayed for God to be with all those who are sick, sad, abandoned, hurt, needy and most of all for those who are lost. Doesn't it break your hearts to know there are people out there even ones we know, who have heard God's Word, but refuses to accept the gift of salvation???
I accepted Jesus Christ as my Saviour about 34 yrs ago. As a young girl I went to Church with my family, loved the Lord, and thought I was saved, but I continued to do things without first praying and asking for God's guidance. I loved my fellow friends, neighbors, and would help them often, but there was a war raging inside me. Feelings of not being worthy of LOVE...the kind of love that endures a lifetime mading many mistakes that furthered my feeling of not being worthy! You ask what was it that made me finally stop, and really search myself? I was in a marriage with a non-believer so being totally honest with my feelings about God where not allowed. Even going to Church wasn't always allowed...get the picture I was a co-dependent.
During the 10 yrs of marriage I was mentally and physically abused. I was so sad then my daugher, April was born. She was a beautiful baby, and the light of my existance!!! Twenty two months later my daugher, Melissa was born. Many of you know about Missy being born with a very rare muscle disease, and for the longest time I believed God was punishing me for all the bad choices I'd made in my life. She was so very sick, and the team of drs who administered care at Children's first thought she had Cystic Fibrosis, but the muscle biopsy done at NIH showed that she had a genetic disease which was actually the loss of Cross Striations in the muscle fibrils. This means all striated muscles of with the heart is too. There was never a prognosis, ( still none even thought she's learned to deal with so many disadvantages.(She loves the Lord too)
At the age of 1 and 1/2 they didn't give us much hope that she would live very long. Only about 50 cases in the whole USA was thought to have something similar! This is when I turned to the Church...prayer at home just wasn't enough...I needed council, and I needed to be with other Christians. I was saved on a Sunday 34 and 1/2 yrs ago kneeling at the alter. It was the most awesome feeling I'd ever had...I felt completely washed...and brand new...Weeks later I was baptised. I'd changed inside and out, but the marriage I was in didn't. I'd hoped if he saw the LIGHT in me he would want it too... He didn't!
Now having been married for almost 27 yrs to my dh I'm still feeling blessed and working on my personal relationship with God. I know I'll be going to Heaven when Jesus comes again Life has been hard of late, business not producing, but we are believing that if it doesn't change then we must do something else. Many have cared enough to help us and for that I'm so very thankful...we've returned that blessing by helping those living near us. God always shows us the way even tho it's in HIS timing not ours~~~ I think the hardest thing for me was to give up control over what I wanted to do! I finally believed it was not my strength that I do anything. "Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you (me) will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ. Phil 1:6 my favorite scripture!!!
I love all of you how have been so faithful in coming and visiting my blog...this one today is totally from my heart to yours!!! Thanks be to God!!!!

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