I'm not going into all that has caused a real deep anger and hurt in my heart for more years than I care to count! This goes back to the time when our mom left us the day of my 17th birthday....this affected all of us kids, and I've shared bits of this before...I denied for years that I had a problem refusing to listen to what the dreams were tell me. Oh yes, I dreamed way too often about that time so long ago. When mom came to live with my hubby and me I told myself it would be fine, but in time I realized I resented her way more than I thought. Then I didn't see her for a time because she moved to Florida to live with one of my sisters. She's lived with several of us from the time her husband passed. Now at 91 I've finally decided I had a choice either I would hold on to this anger and feeling of dread when she asked to come visit..(I was making up excuses why she shouldn't come) After much praying and talks with God I knew this was only putting a veil between God and me. I was holding on to those feelings instead of forgiving and moving on. Well I have put it to rest!!! I had move here the week before and it was wonderful to share REAL feelings of love for her...it's amazing how by listening to God who kept telling me, If I can forgive you of all your transgressions how can you hold on to something that is only hurting yourself? Yep, and it feels so good. I hope if you have anger or hurt in your hearts from someone who has done things to you in the past...it's for your own good to come to terms with it and let it go....I pray for each of you cuz I want you to feel the freedom that comes with forgiveness!!!
In Christian love!! (((Hugs)))
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